depression pills

i was in a place i didn’t wanna be

all those lexapro pills made me feel down

the temptation i gave into

i lost my myself

not by the scars on my skin, or the thoughts that run through my head 

i felt like the drugs took over me

i wasn’t myself anymore, the drugs changed me and so did my thoughts and all the bad choices i made

Satan called me by my sin, but God called me by my name he brought me more hope than all those depression pills could ever bring…

there is no saving me, that’s how i felt my life was lie no one saw how much i wanted to die 

i knew God had a plan, but it was hard to see that things would get better when I thought it was the end…

-elysia 

purpose of life

money is temporary, career is temporary     God is eternal and he was a plan for you…life is temporary, but everything you need is in God

when your lost put your trust into God and let him guide you to next thing in life, breathe and be patient believe that God has the power to turn your worst situations around for your good trust him

regardless of what’s ahead of me, i will keep on trusting you my father

whatever you are going through, God will not only bring you through it but he will make you stronger

-elysia stephenson 

bad habits (sins)

one thing at a time, i try to change or fix my bad habits as i fix one it feels like another bad thing happens…

i wanna change and grow in faith but nothing is working out im trying to just put my trust into God and let him work things out but i have no patience or hope that things will get better everything is falling apart at once and i don’t know what to do i wanna just give up but i know there’s more but this issue controls my thoughts, my daily life and my emotions

there’s no way out of my issues other than solving them which i don’t have to power to change/fix them

i try to prevent sin, or stop committing the same sin and when i focus on stoping one sin i began to cope with a different sin to break the habit of my past sins

i personally have bad habits (sins) that i have to break and try my best to stay away from, which when i try to focus on staying away i get attached to something to help me cope which also is a bad habit (sin) 

some sins/bad habits are addictive, or just a part of your everyday life that has been a daily routine 

-elysia stephenson 

emotions 

i hate my anxiety and i hate my tendencies, i saw i wanna change but then i just go back and i make those same mistakes my life is always a war…

don’t fool yourself they’ve seen your scars, they don’t care to help but if something happens they’ll act like it broke their heart

depression isn’t a choice, when you feel so low about yourself and your life and it leads to bad thoughts of suicide or hurting yourself and temptation is worse than ever especially when you try to keep your mind set 

emotions, can lead you to things that have temporary relief which normally end up becoming addictive coping methods and make it even harder to change yourself or your life

drugs give you a high that lets you forget about everything that’s happening but soon as the high goes down things are back to normal and you have to face reality sober…alcohol makes you drunk which makes you act fast and keep drinking but when it wears off your sober and your back to reality…smoking is addictive and the motion and feeling that whatever you smoke gives you temporary relief and you feel calm but it’s addictive 

today’s well known coping methods and just life methods end up causing more problems in life

-elysia stephenson 

temptation 

“Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”  – ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5:7‬ ‭

everyone faces temptation, and deals with it in different ways

some people repeatedly commit the same sin over and over and believe that it’s ok if they confess to Jesus he will forgive 

some people try to stay away from sin as much as possible and when they commit a sin they confess and stay away from the temptation that caused them to sin and  they were forgiving by Jesus, and respect his forgiveness and obey him 

temptation is a very difficult thing,             today in this society many people believe that doing drugs and getting drunk is ok, which isn’t the plan God has for their lives

from experience temptation lead me some where which i thought i would never be and it took a lot to get out of where i was mentally, physically and spiritually, it made me realize the meaning and purpose of life and how useless the things were that lead me to sin which also made me thing how important choices are and the impact they make, even as i was tempted to sin i still loved Jesus and still had the passion to follow him i was just not in a good place mentally

temptation…

strength 

don’t rush anything in God’s perfect timing it’ll happen…God has a way of making sure everything works out for your good

God has a purpose for your pain, a reason for your struggles, and a reward for your faithfulness 

even at your darkest moments when you believe that there’s no hope, God has a plan for you and your life and he is the work of making things change for your good…

when your stressed, worried or depressed…pray

“Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;”                      – ‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:12‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.”                     – ‭‭Colossians‬ ‭3:15‬ ‭KJV‬‬

when your lost and don’t know what is next, God knows where your headed and has a plan for your life and relationship with him, put your trust into God and let him work out the rest for your good…

change 

when you put in effort to change and make your life better but no matter how hard you try you keep messing up and ruin everything all over again…

everyone has a chapter in their life that they don’t read out loud

people are who they are because of the battles they’ve fought and the struggles they’ve overcame 

after a rough patch in life, you think maybe there’s something you can change to prevent or fix yourself so you don’t have to spend your life facing the same problem and struggles in life…

however you have to want to change and fix things, which is difficult in many ways even when you give it all you have.         you still make mistakes but that ok it’s normal to make mistakes.

the feeling of trying your best and wanting to change yourself and you’re life and while changing you end up ruining something else or making things worse… 

one mistakes that makes an huge impact on your life that makes you feel that you must change and restart, leaving everything behind 

it’s like one problem after another piles up and there’s no way out other than solving them and moving on but as you fix them more problems keep coming and everything you fixed doesn’t even feel like its solve anymore